Let’s look at this faith thing a little closer for just a moment.
(My apologies, I can feel myself getting off track here!)
Faith is actually a pretty easy thing to have, really. If you close
your eyes, you have faith that when you open them again you
will still have sight. You may not conciously be aware of it, but
it’s there. You just take it for granted. So do I.
You have faith, when you put your feet down in the middle of
the night and it’s pitch black in your bedroom, that your feet will
find the floor, instead of the entrance to a bottomless pit. You have
faith when you go to sleep, that you will wake up again…that when
you exhale one breath, you will inhale another. That when the sun
sets this evening, it will rise again in the morning. That everyone
you went to sleep with will wake up with you…
You don’t even think about it, most of the time. You just assume
it will be because it always has been. You have faith in these things,
whether you’re aware of it or not. Having faith isn’t so hard, at all,
when you look at it…
What’s tough, is having faith in God. Wondering if He’s gonna get
you through the dark places, where the demons and boogey-men
claw at your mind, body and soul. THAT’S the tough part. At least,
it is for me…
I mean, I know He did it for David. I know He did it for Abraham.
I know He did it for Moses, Elijah, Elisha, Sampson…countless others.
But how do I know he’ll do it for me? I mean….
I know Jesus died for my sins. I know I’ve been saved by his blood.
I know that one day or one night, when I close my eyes, I’m NOT
going to wake up like I’ve always done. Instead, I’m going to wake
up at home, where I belong. I have no doubts about that. None.
But what about the bills I don’t seem to have the money to pay? What
about the child that doesn’t seem to want to follow the path I think he
or she needs to be on? What about the job I don’t have and can’t find?
What about the job that I DO have, but can’t stand the thought of going
to? What about all the intolerable people I come across on a daily basis?
WHAT ABOUT THE PROBLEMS OF LIFE???
Maybe…just maybe…that’s why those things are there. Because I’m
trying to deal with them myself, instead of giving them over to the one
that’s equiped to deal with them….
Jesus.
Maybe…just maybe…instead of trying to carry today, tomorrow, the
next day and the day after that…for weeks or months to come…maybe
I should just trust HIM to carry those days, while I struggle with just one.
Today.
Isn’t that what he said in Matt. 6:34? Why is it so hard to believe he
will carry the future and keep my world from crashing down on my head?
Because I’m human…and I’ve been innoculated by the world to keep
me from the Word. Because I’ve seen the worlds of OTHER people come
crashing down on THEM and I don’t want it to happen to me, too…
The thing I fail to realize, sometimes, is that when I see a crashing world,
I’m seeing it from only my perspective. What I perceive as a pile of ruin,
is often just a mound of rubbish that had to be cleared away to make way
for a new foundation…a firm foundation for a glorious new building that my
simple mind just doesn’t have the foresight to imagine!
